ABBY DAY 21

Today was a big day for Abby and for all of us.  She was taken off the ventilator today and placed on CPAP.  So far she is doing well.  She is having to have a little more oxygen support but that is to be expected.   They told us not to get upset if they have to put her back on the ventilator because that is normal for preemies .  This is a huge step for her and for us.  She is so strong.  Sometimes I think she is stronger than us.  The Dr's say take it day by day , that is easy for them to say .   We try but , we have so much planned for our family .On a lighter note,  the nurse says she poops frequently.  Fine for me, Im a nurse and used to it.  Chad , not so much.  Ethan is helping me with that.

  Our angel is so strong, stronger than us.  God is stronger than us all and I know he brought her here and is watching over her.  I think this experience is making  Chad and I closer too.   As a mom, It is so  hard to see their child suffering and not being there to make it better.  I am struggling with the fact that she is still not inside of me where we are together no matter what.   They say take it day by day, but they don't know .  It is second by second.  I do have faith therefore I know whatever happens is meant to be- That doesnt make things easier sometimes.   One day I hope to look back at this  and say " Wow what a wonderful family I have".   I already have that , but ABBY  is a necessity, she is our BABY.